I keep the veneer clean and polished
No one sees beyond its sheen
The meek and shuddering cries alike I keep hidden deep where they dwell
I cannot allow them to see the light
Never admitting others into this hell hidden within
You see the me that invites a kind word, smile, laugh or nod
I struggle to keep the façade in place
Imagining your disgust and revolution of my true inner self would be too much
This is my daily toil and charge
In the night my calloused heart attempts to breathe
It struggles to hold the sadness – the madness propagating, multiplying
Pressure builds and the nightmares come
Even in slumber I have no solace or rest
I must prop up and hold the barrier to keep the damnation of my Winter’s soul at bay
In my dreams people see the real me and I want to die
Brokenness is too kind a word
Morning brings the cold reality of polishing the veneer
Another day of hiding in plain sight
Smiling, I will hold the abomination that is stealthily stalking behind my eyes
A jail within
A mirage without
Who knows how many people this describes, hiding in plain sight? May we be given the sensitivity to discern the need and treat them accordingly.
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A very tough place to dwell.
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Not sure why that struck me to write, but… It’s nice to write something again! I hope all is well in the world of Liz!
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Well, we’re living in perilous times. All is well in my little cocoon of a world.
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A post for the masses……
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Thank you!
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